This week has been A WEEK, and it's only Wednesday.

There is a lot going on in the world right now. Everything seems politically unstable which makes life, safety and comfort feel a lot more fragile. In the midst of all that, like all of us, I have my own 'a lot' adding to the collective 'a lot' we are all experiencing. I have spent the last six weeks in daily pain and numbness in my right arm, shoulder, and neck due to a nerve compression in my neck. At this point, I am used to the pain (which is disconcerting in itself), but what pushes me over the emotional edge is when it feels like it has been getting better for a few days, and then I wake up in more pain again. Somehow, knowing the pain will get less and less from here on out would be more manageable than the game of pain roulette my body seems to be playing each day.

In the midst of a week of the coldest temperatures I have every experiences, I found out my uncle passed. He was older, he had lived a good life, and was unwell, so although I know he is at peace and no longer in pain, it creates a complex web of emotions that requires sifting through.

So, if you see me crying at a random Instagram post where the owner of the Patriots gives a family tickets to the Super Bowl or a video of Joe Mazzulla having one of his players back in front of the press, it's probably not about that at all. It's all of it, all at once, with nowhere else to go but become tears.

This week, this moment, we are seeing some of the worst of humanity. Ego. Division. Power Slinging. But amid it all, we are also seeing the best of humanity rise up in us. Unity. Self-Sacrifice. Solidarity.

I do not know what you believe, but the scriptures I believe in say, "The light shines in the darkness, and the darkness can never extinguish it." To me, we are seeing a physical illustration of this play out before our eyes. And I do not want to miss this. I do not want US to miss this moment.

So in the midst of the pain, sadness, and overwhelm, let's do what we can to stay open to the moment. Let it move us to tears of joy, hope, gratitude, and love. For those are the lights that can not be extinguished or overcome by darkness.

Nikki xo